Like a pancake
I feel flat today. Its a combo of things that all contribute and I wish I could go away to recharge my batteries.
Adam was finally born last night. We can see how His timing was perfect in all this, it took over 2 days before anything started. It was a time for my friend to rest and come to terms with her loss and a chance to see a stream of visitors who love her family. Once the labour started we prayed for a super short one and it only lasted 3 hours which was a relief. They have a supernatural shalom peace about everything and I am once again reminded that life without Him, is just too hard to even comprehend.
Remember when I wrote about people in our church who lost their precious girl in a drowning accident on January 5th? I think about them EVERY single day and her picture stays on my fridge. Sometimes I want to take it off but I feel like that is forgetting her and I never want to do that. Her parents travelled for 5 months but have been back for a month and I know they are taking such huge strain. I wish I could hold them a while, give them some relief and take some of the grief away but I can't of course. It is her 3rd birthday coming up on the 1st of August. We are not sure what to do and how to handle the day. I want to do something on her behalf and have been thinking of getting a wish list from the animal welfare and getting people to buy things on behalf of Mia. She loved animals. I need to ask her parents if this is OK. It is incomprehensible to have to deal with grief like that and once again, it is only Him that carries them everyday.
I know many of you are thinking why doesn't He just save these little people in the 1st place and avoid all the grief and sadness altogether. I don't know, He is God and we have no idea why but we do know He doesn't leave us alone to deal with the sadness by ourselves. Now I feel flat AND sad and good old PMS too so I am going to go now before I have all of you feeling the same way.
Gary leaves for the US today so I better go smooch a bit. Actually maybe just a long, slow hug, not in the smooching mood. Bye.


